A CLOCK IN THE FAR PAST:A PAUSE,A DEDICATION

a clock

And when it comes to transparence,

a truer tale could be told in

not so much as two lines

as that harboured in a tome

meant to be flipped

with nonchalant fluency.

 

A Clock in the Far Past by Sarabjeet Garcha opens with the poem ‘Frugal Narrative.The above lines struck me like an invite.The word frugal is an interesting kernel to explore,there is an emotive generosity,a meditative capacity in these poems to pause, to generate insight,feel fruition and leave an inescapable taste in your presence once you have kept the book back on the study or by the bedside or gifted someone else to enjoy.The balance of the book lingers on.

 

The outstanding experience of bringing the reader closer to earthiness to feel ‘a lump of loose brown soil’ or ‘malleable mound’ or ‘jaggery gone viscous’ are real reminders of transition,a journey out of the ‘plastic chaos’ of now to equanimity,to eco-awareness. There is no idealism in the pitch as we take the journey to the poet’s past,it is presented as it is and that’s what keeps the faith in both now and then. ‘A Patch of Sunlight’ confirms how we have could have seen more, read more yet there is no negation of what has been missed for it has only added to the capacity of experience.

 

The missing punctuations mystify the reader. Do we go deeper or do we just stop is the question one wraps into while reading ‘The Believer’, ‘Unlearning the Kabir and ‘Keeper of the Granth’.At times the poems weave a lull, a walk blanketing the rainy forest, the freshness of fecund memories one can just brew as one keep turning the pages.What keeps the text, reader and narrator going in a rhythmic dance is that ambiguity of simplified belongingness. Here nobody is leading the other or refusing the other,it is also an amalgamation of obscuring the boundaries, yet keeping what belongs to you as yours;it is a delightful mix of walking together;often reminds of buskers you meet on a train journey or a religious walk that is incomplete without everyone’s accompaniment of full presence. The poems carry one into their fold without demanding,jostling but slowly lacing one in a way that you are startled how effortlessly your being wears them without a cost.

 

I enjoy this richness that compels you to feel known,tasted,once belonged be it in past or now or speak of some private soiree when you know you can put ‘glow-worms to shame’ or the perpetuity as ‘says the river’ in the poem ‘Passenger”.

 

Every return of mine

will coincide

with the scripting

of a new tale..

 

And one wonders holding the clock in the hand, the fluidity, the passage, the endearing challenging timelessness of the time. In the practice of mindfulness, the attention is all-encompassing,non-judging and kind. The tenderness, beauty and ease with which this collection blends into one’s being calls for its acceptance into the poetry of presence.

Thank you Sarabjeet for this eclectic brew. Breathing, sipping, singing and moving! We are walking into the dance of past without searing it for analytic display but for the healing that it has already brought into the now.

 

I offer myself tenderness 🌻

 

Sufie (the Indie-dog)and Fifi (the pigeon)were rescued from the street as babies and offer tenderness to each other.Fifi lost her vision, when she was less than a month old to pigeon pox.

 

Today,I am watchful of leftovers- the residues of past, the bits, and pieces I thought were over and perhaps stayed back somewhere somnolent.

Today, I choose to be watchful, curious and kind, non-judgmental overall of all that follows in the flashes, specks, memories, and words.

Tenderness begins right from where I am and in the whatever challenging manner I meet myself, let tenderness be my offering.

 

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A moment of Self-love

And today-just listen to your self: the flutter, the criticism, the bickering, the noise, the stillness.

Whatever it is, pay attention.

Are there multiple thoughts or there is one primary thought underlying the multiple thoughts.

Whatever it is, pay attention to the need underneath the thought and there is always a need for love, offer self-love in whatever way you can.

What is it that you like?

I want a cup of tea, sit and breathe.

Time is not the constraint, five minutes, one minute-a pause is always welcome.

Sit back,watch-the thought, the feeling, the need and move on! May we experience our presence as it is!🌻🌻💟

Smooth Rowing, My Friends!

In this deep and colourful,

sea of human emotions,

every day has something

beautiful to hold

and intense to practice with,

a  consistent check of

intention and attention

is such a canoe,

wish us all:

smooth rowing, my dear friends.

Holding and watching,

holding and walking,

holding and sailing,

smooth rowing my dear friends.

Sifting and watching,

sitting and holding,

smooth rowing my friends.

Lulling and waking,

yawning and preserving,

carrying what we can,

not ordering, not punishing,

not deluging, not arguing,

navigating and holding,

smooth rowing my dear friends.🌻🌷🌿

 

In Goa, introducing two beautiful friends 🙂                                                                       Image (c)                                                                                                                                                      Sarabsri

 

 

 

 

 

Stopping by is all that I know

Watching my presence as I stop, feeling my feet as I walk is all that I know.

The breathing ground under my feet and breathing me in my chest is all that I know.

The breathing presence around me and composed stopped me is all that I know.

Nothing wears me down as long as I know what holds me under and calms me down.

So, stopping by amidst breathing and wavering is all that I know.

This groundedness in vacuity and stillness in wisdom is all that I know.

Stopping by is all that I know.

Plum Village :Summer Mindfulness Retreat (1)

 

This Summer, I attended Mindfulness Retreat at Plum village in South France.It is the first of its kind zen monastery established by the revered Vietnamese teacher, Thich Nhah Hanh in the West.

I have been reading and listening to Thay for years.He is an inspiration, an emblem in the world of Mindfulness teaching.In the year 1967,Martin Luther King,Jr.nominated Thay for Nobel Peace Prize,referring him as the gentle Buddhist monk,an apostle of peace and non-violence…cruelly separated from his land and people.Interestingly,this nomination was cancelled, for the nominations can’t be openly discussed.I am sure,the weight of Nobel Prizes,is something Thay would have seriously not burdened himself with, for he has remained a monk in action, an activist of peace forever.The real leaders are teachers in action and go beyond their designated times, labels to strive for peace.

Plum village, is one such place that not only calls for peace and diversity but is also a  creative culmination of Zen, traditional Buddhism and the universal, ethical values we can all identify with.It is an all-encompassing, embracing and nurturing abode, where anyone can easily feel belongingness and home.

My room in the dormitory, where I stayed during my retreat was a few minutes walk from the meditation hall of the  Lower Hamlet.Every day, my walk added inexplicable joy to my presence, the beaming Sunflower fields along the road kissed my eyes as I watched them in reverence.

In many of his talks and writings, Thay has mentioned about the Sunflowers at the Plum Village and here they were, a gift to watch everyday-youthful, alive and welcoming.Some stood in their grace, some leaned onto the other, some rows just transcended to one’s heart as the flowers bowed towards the azure skies.

Every flower spoke, every blade gleamed, every movement of these flowers brought the words and philosophy of Thay to my mind that: we don’t know the nature of the seed.We offer it to the earth without expecting it to bloom at our will.We let nature do its role and do ours.We allow the flowers to bloom.

This was my first lesson, first insight-allowing the self to be, to bloom or be under the ground.Everything is welcome.Every moment is fertile.

This was my walking meditation, the Sunflower meditation-watching the melting skies, the clear blue patches of blue, gray, black in the various hues overlooking the green, golden yellow floral orbs.At times, I washed the self in their presence, at times I offered my presence,at times I melted in-between to dance in dawn and dusk.At times, I too stood like a sunflower on my stalk, weighing my presence with no rationalizing and jargon, at times I just became the sunflower inside and noticed nothing with closed eyes outside.

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The Blue whale in us:A mother-son conversation

I was talking to my kid about the perils of the Blue Whale Game and assuring, how support is always near and we can ask whenever we want,for more than adults children often bottle up with hesitation.I wanted to assure him that his voice is heard and if he has anything about the game, he had heard from his friends, it was utmost important to share with adults.So, I coaxed him to talk and he said yes, I have heard about the game and I know how to be safe but my friends say,there are agents of Blue whale game, they are spread all over the world and if a child doesn’t submit to the task they ask for, they can find you and take you away.
First of all,I was relieved that he had shared. Then, breathing, holding our hearts, I said-No, kiddo.The kids in the school are not right.It is just not possible.Nobody can dare do this to any child.Nobody, yes.I stressed and said- there is law.There are cops, see what happened to Ram Rahim.Nobody is above the law.
He listened to me deeply, wisely and said-What about Salman Khan?He could go free, like that.He could, right?
My moment, oh yes!Thank you for saying it out.
I was speechless and awakened.Gathering my self and breathing into this painful acknowledgment of the harsh, criminal truth, I said but you know-I am here and together, we can take care of all the demons.Let’s breathe and sing our songs.Shall we?I am watching you,you are watching too.We will keep ourselves safe.
And we did sing our song but I know my answer was not enough, my words were not complete but my work was-he could cogitate and wonder at what the world was capable of-not just the inventions, beauty, and marvels but also the extremes of cruelty, violence and injustice.
Our children are watching-the world we have created,the world we have decimated.
Though,we could sing our song for a while but I know that he knows that there is a much deeper poison than the blue whale that has choked us all out of our very essence of being just, humane and conscious or kind.
Every breath meets many heart breaks,every day is a challenge.It is so tough holding the centre,it is so tough to see through this mania,division and justice taken on a ride.And yet, I choose,I do, consciously I do to hold myself in full presence with compassion and calmness, swerving and shaking for we need hearts and hopes, shoulders to lean,for courage to manifest from our deepest sorrows and breakdowns.As I said-I am here,we are here,you are here.
Sending us all equanimity,peace and calm!Breathe on!

 

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Clicked at Plum village,France.Calligraphy by Thich Nhat Hanh

 

Are we coming?Yes,we are!

There is no end

to arriving,

there is no end

to opening.

Every wait

is a longing

in  its own making,

Every wait

stitches the songs,

bandages the soul.

So,are we coming?

Are we walking

following,running rippling ,

denying,judging,walking,

forgiving,fluidic and falling.

Are we coming?

Yes,we are holding:

laughing, meandering and suturing,

wearing our oceans and

washing our fears,

grieving and celebrating,

yes,we are catching,

look no behind,

we are walking,singing,

forgiving,running.

We are…

Sarabsri (Copyright)

 

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Framing the Dark

 

 

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The dark has a banquet

of

intimacy and depth,

of  mystery

and  passion,

of wholeness,

and flow,

in not differing,

in not knowing

anything else,

another color,

another emotion

of

rawness,intellect,sensation

or sense.

The layering after layering

is an invite in dark,

a marriage of steps,

a symphony of

rest,

a walk in the womb,

a pause in the talk.

just dark and

dark.

In all the attention,

in all the gap,

no awakening,

no call,

no  brighteness,

no light,

just dark and

dark.

In all the sameness,

in all the cellullarness,

in the wetness,

in the birthing

before the dying and

deconstructing.

Just dark

and dark.

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Meditating with Dogs:Deep love

 

No matter how the tail wags,

no matter  how the hunger hurts,

no matter how every second

something crashes the attention,

no matter who gets the most in the bowl and

who always misses the point,

no matter you are left in the morning

and you meet others at night,

no matter how bad is the wait,

and how crushing it is to remain by the gate,

no matter how unrewarded is the job,

and how petrified is the loved one’s mind.

It is only with deep love,

we catch the ground,

it is only how you receive ,

not what they give you is the end,

the gentleness of a hand on the paw,

the smile that greets gratitude on the lips,

the smile that travels from tails to tips,

the mouth that forgives and wonders in bow,

the love that needs no labels and names,

the love that focusses without shift and blames,

the love that shares more than it seeks.

It is only this deep love

which matters in the now and the end.

Dogs teach a lot,

when we want to hear,

when we are ready to hear.

Sarabsri

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