A CLOCK IN THE FAR PAST:A PAUSE,A DEDICATION

a clock

And when it comes to transparence,

a truer tale could be told in

not so much as two lines

as that harboured in a tome

meant to be flipped

with nonchalant fluency.

 

A Clock in the Far Past by Sarabjeet Garcha opens with the poem ‘Frugal Narrative.The above lines struck me like an invite.The word frugal is an interesting kernel to explore,there is an emotive generosity,a meditative capacity in these poems to pause, to generate insight,feel fruition and leave an inescapable taste in your presence once you have kept the book back on the study or by the bedside or gifted someone else to enjoy.The balance of the book lingers on.

 

The outstanding experience of bringing the reader closer to earthiness to feel ‘a lump of loose brown soil’ or ‘malleable mound’ or ‘jaggery gone viscous’ are real reminders of transition,a journey out of the ‘plastic chaos’ of now to equanimity,to eco-awareness. There is no idealism in the pitch as we take the journey to the poet’s past,it is presented as it is and that’s what keeps the faith in both now and then. ‘A Patch of Sunlight’ confirms how we have could have seen more, read more yet there is no negation of what has been missed for it has only added to the capacity of experience.

 

The missing punctuations mystify the reader. Do we go deeper or do we just stop is the question one wraps into while reading ‘The Believer’, ‘Unlearning the Kabir and ‘Keeper of the Granth’.At times the poems weave a lull, a walk blanketing the rainy forest, the freshness of fecund memories one can just brew as one keep turning the pages.What keeps the text, reader and narrator going in a rhythmic dance is that ambiguity of simplified belongingness. Here nobody is leading the other or refusing the other,it is also an amalgamation of obscuring the boundaries, yet keeping what belongs to you as yours;it is a delightful mix of walking together;often reminds of buskers you meet on a train journey or a religious walk that is incomplete without everyone’s accompaniment of full presence. The poems carry one into their fold without demanding,jostling but slowly lacing one in a way that you are startled how effortlessly your being wears them without a cost.

 

I enjoy this richness that compels you to feel known,tasted,once belonged be it in past or now or speak of some private soiree when you know you can put ‘glow-worms to shame’ or the perpetuity as ‘says the river’ in the poem ‘Passenger”.

 

Every return of mine

will coincide

with the scripting

of a new tale..

 

And one wonders holding the clock in the hand, the fluidity, the passage, the endearing challenging timelessness of the time. In the practice of mindfulness, the attention is all-encompassing,non-judging and kind. The tenderness, beauty and ease with which this collection blends into one’s being calls for its acceptance into the poetry of presence.

Thank you Sarabjeet for this eclectic brew. Breathing, sipping, singing and moving! We are walking into the dance of past without searing it for analytic display but for the healing that it has already brought into the now.

 

Letters to dear Body: Notice our Body

Letters to dear Body: Notice our BodyReminders are our friends.Reminders keep our practice functional, supporting our mental health,physical health, nurturing our presence.

Dear Son helped me out with doing fresh reminders for the entire apartment.

 

We decided to start by drinking a jug of detox water, writing letters to our body,reminders for our body,inviting our presence to settle,watch and be with our body.

The first reminder is Breathe and Smile.We are enough,we have been told.We are not enough we have been retold many a times.

This reminder is to say nothing at all,just notice the body, breathing body,the smiling body,the tiring body,the painful body, welcoming the body in whichever way dear body is.

This reminder is an invite to be with our bodies,to begin our journey,our rest, experiencing our love,our sadness ,our stories held in the body.

Let’s start by being with the Body-our friend, companion and bearer.

Noticing the body without stories, feelings,doses of compassion for there will be time for all that but first where is my body,how is my body and let me notice you dear body.

You can notice the small changes you didn’t see for years,you can experience your pain, sensations, cold or warm,you can feel fullness of your presence and let it be as it is.

I offer myself tenderness 🌻

 

Sufie (the Indie-dog)and Fifi (the pigeon)were rescued from the street as babies and offer tenderness to each other.Fifi lost her vision, when she was less than a month old to pigeon pox.

 

Today,I am watchful of leftovers- the residues of past, the bits, and pieces I thought were over and perhaps stayed back somewhere somnolent.

Today, I choose to be watchful, curious and kind, non-judgmental overall of all that follows in the flashes, specks, memories, and words.

Tenderness begins right from where I am and in the whatever challenging manner I meet myself, let tenderness be my offering.

 

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I rejoice ♥🌻

I noticed that behind inspiring someone, looking deeply into their eyes and offering a hand,I was offering myself incredible bundles of support, inspiration and love.I was offering myself what many a times I couldn’t find the courage to do,I was loving and fulfilling myself.I was moving into present and rejoicing for others,my words were unfolding worlds of joy…who knows what you can achieve just by believing in someone,by baring your heart and bearing your failure.I rejoice in everyone’s happiness and success.I rejoice in all that everyone has,the capacities and wonders.I rejoice in my past, imperfections and losses.I rejoice and honour myself,I celebrate you,me,us and everyone here and everywhere.❤❤♥🌻

Move on! Everything teaches🌻

It makes complete sense to embrace yourself,when you can’t do another thing.A compassionate hug to self is more important than any intellectual probing,let’s not be hard,bent on finding faults,flowing is deeply essential.Move on!Sending loving friendliness to us all❤🌻

Life is the only teacher,look no more!

When you open your presence to life and bow to the mystery of its teachings.When you know nothing is better than what you live, experience and learn from.Connecting deeply to who you are,how you live and how you open with an embrace,that’s all…dear one,that’s all.May we all experience our presence!May we be happy!

In our deep disappointment lies a beginning,a hope and bounties of  happiness.Happy moving!Happy learning! Opening my presence to life, getting unstuck and moving is the mantra to say on.

Sending Loving kindness to everyone in the universe.🌻🌻🌻🌻

Meet the Happy Dog in the picture,the sleep says it all❤

Plum Village :Summer Mindfulness Retreat (1)

 

This Summer, I attended Mindfulness Retreat at Plum village in South France.It is the first of its kind zen monastery established by the revered Vietnamese teacher, Thich Nhah Hanh in the West.

I have been reading and listening to Thay for years.He is an inspiration, an emblem in the world of Mindfulness teaching.In the year 1967,Martin Luther King,Jr.nominated Thay for Nobel Peace Prize,referring him as the gentle Buddhist monk,an apostle of peace and non-violence…cruelly separated from his land and people.Interestingly,this nomination was cancelled, for the nominations can’t be openly discussed.I am sure,the weight of Nobel Prizes,is something Thay would have seriously not burdened himself with, for he has remained a monk in action, an activist of peace forever.The real leaders are teachers in action and go beyond their designated times, labels to strive for peace.

Plum village, is one such place that not only calls for peace and diversity but is also a  creative culmination of Zen, traditional Buddhism and the universal, ethical values we can all identify with.It is an all-encompassing, embracing and nurturing abode, where anyone can easily feel belongingness and home.

My room in the dormitory, where I stayed during my retreat was a few minutes walk from the meditation hall of the  Lower Hamlet.Every day, my walk added inexplicable joy to my presence, the beaming Sunflower fields along the road kissed my eyes as I watched them in reverence.

In many of his talks and writings, Thay has mentioned about the Sunflowers at the Plum Village and here they were, a gift to watch everyday-youthful, alive and welcoming.Some stood in their grace, some leaned onto the other, some rows just transcended to one’s heart as the flowers bowed towards the azure skies.

Every flower spoke, every blade gleamed, every movement of these flowers brought the words and philosophy of Thay to my mind that: we don’t know the nature of the seed.We offer it to the earth without expecting it to bloom at our will.We let nature do its role and do ours.We allow the flowers to bloom.

This was my first lesson, first insight-allowing the self to be, to bloom or be under the ground.Everything is welcome.Every moment is fertile.

This was my walking meditation, the Sunflower meditation-watching the melting skies, the clear blue patches of blue, gray, black in the various hues overlooking the green, golden yellow floral orbs.At times, I washed the self in their presence, at times I offered my presence,at times I melted in-between to dance in dawn and dusk.At times, I too stood like a sunflower on my stalk, weighing my presence with no rationalizing and jargon, at times I just became the sunflower inside and noticed nothing with closed eyes outside.

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Are we coming?Yes,we are!

There is no end

to arriving,

there is no end

to opening.

Every wait

is a longing

in  its own making,

Every wait

stitches the songs,

bandages the soul.

So,are we coming?

Are we walking

following,running rippling ,

denying,judging,walking,

forgiving,fluidic and falling.

Are we coming?

Yes,we are holding:

laughing, meandering and suturing,

wearing our oceans and

washing our fears,

grieving and celebrating,

yes,we are catching,

look no behind,

we are walking,singing,

forgiving,running.

We are…

Sarabsri (Copyright)

 

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Meditating with Dogs:Deep love

 

No matter how the tail wags,

no matter  how the hunger hurts,

no matter how every second

something crashes the attention,

no matter who gets the most in the bowl and

who always misses the point,

no matter you are left in the morning

and you meet others at night,

no matter how bad is the wait,

and how crushing it is to remain by the gate,

no matter how unrewarded is the job,

and how petrified is the loved one’s mind.

It is only with deep love,

we catch the ground,

it is only how you receive ,

not what they give you is the end,

the gentleness of a hand on the paw,

the smile that greets gratitude on the lips,

the smile that travels from tails to tips,

the mouth that forgives and wonders in bow,

the love that needs no labels and names,

the love that focusses without shift and blames,

the love that shares more than it seeks.

It is only this deep love

which matters in the now and the end.

Dogs teach a lot,

when we want to hear,

when we are ready to hear.

Sarabsri

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The Mindfulness of a Vipassana teacher

At the recently concluded 10 Days Vipassana retreat at the Dhamma Paphulla in Bangalore,I had the chance to attend the retreat led by Mrs.Kusum Zaveri and her husband Pravin Zaveri,both travelling teachers from Gujarat.

Vipassana often translated as Insight meditation or Mindfulness meditation is a Pali word,which means gathering attentiveness to the mind,body and sensations.It is more than 2500 years old technique and Gautama Buddha is credited to have discovered and shared it for the benefit of all sentient beings.Over the years and centuries after the demise of Buddha and formation of different schools of Buddhist thought,it was believed that the technique was lost in many variations of style and thought till S.N Goenka,an Indian origin industrialist from Burma learnt this from Sayagyi U Ba Khin and brought the teaching back to India after more than fourteen years of training and learning under the great master U Ba Khin.

The ten days residential course is open to everyone and requires a strict code of conduct to follow the technique and reap its true benefits.

Dhamma Paphulla is a beautiful centre located around 30 kilometres from Bangalore.It is surrounded by lush green trees and is nestled in a small village.The impression is perfect,for one is neither too far from the city and nor too inside the city.The location happily keeps one connected to everywhere and more so to the beginning of an equanimous journey.

The schedule is tight,the timings are challenging,the food is vegetarian,the volunteers are prompt and kind but one person makes a huge difference in everything that one does and that is the teacher.The teacher has to not only offer this learning but also learn along with learning with supreme patience,compassion and wisdom towards everyone present.

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Kusum Zaveri,the teacher who supervised this retreat I attended,started teaching Vipassana in 1991 after spending years of training and learning at the various centres.She was introduced into this ancient meditation practice by her husband  Pravin Zaveri and her family teacher Dr. B G Shawla.Till date,she has taught more than 20,000 children alone in the villages of Kutch in Gujarat and also at a centre in Burma  for few years.

Interestingly,unlike many Indian women who have had to struggle with families and tradition to reach their dreams,Kusum passes all the credit to her father -in- law for transforming her from a reserved housewife to a confident,compassionate ,widely travelled teacher.
When I asked her what makes her so unbelievably kind and affectionate towards everyone-from volunteers,workers to students.
“It is all an extended family.Give Metta(loving kindness,a Buddhist practice which stresses on cultivating and sharing love, warmth and good will),you receive Metta”,she said with her loving eyes and handed me four candies to savour the meaning of love in every form,everyone and every way.
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From guiding volunteers day and night to being available to students at midnight to be up in the early morning to instruct,discuss and support;the job of a Vipassana teacher is all about giving and not fulfilling conditions of a contract.One can not drive the show if one doesn’t have the grace and courage to do it selflessly.
“It was Goenka Ji who I derive my commitment and inspiration from”,Kusum remarked when I asked her about this arduous labour of love.
“Goenka ji used to say-provide students everything,be determined to help them and surely,they will learn with honesty and truth”,she answered with the  same child-like frolic with which she had answered many laborious questions on the complex workings of the mind and kept everyone regaled during personal meetings.It was never the mystical quotes from books and best sellers or sutras from somewhere but it was her own gallery of life stories from travel, motherhood,marriage and children she enthused her teachings with.
Before I could deeply bow and offer my gratitude to this true teacher in her late sixties,she gave me a warm hug to understand what exactly the compassion of loving and giving is and teaching being the kernel,the seed,the joy which flowers as much as in the hands of the students as it enthralls the teacher who gives it wholeheartedly.
Indeed Dhamma -the teachings of Buddha,belong to all without any bias and judgments.
Everyone is welcome.
May we all be happy!May we all be well!

 

To find more about Vipassana retreats,check :

https://www.dhamma.org/en/index